15dp5dt - 1008
I am so relieved and finally believe that I am actually pregnant and this may take! I did a little excel file comparing all my other pregnancies and their beta levels and I've FAR surpassed the other levels at 20 dpo. (You know - we all get obsessed one point during TTC!)
No more blood tests until my first ultrasound which is actually Tuesday, October 12th! We will then make sure it's not in the tube and snuggled in the right place. And we will find out how many are in there. C is hoping and still thinking it's two. But I really think it's only one. But we will know for sure in less than a week.
I still can't believe this. I actually came home today and walked into C's office to give him a kiss and said "You're pregnant wife is home." WOW. But I still can't help to think that this is all going to come to an end soon. At the ultrasound, where all my other bad news was given, being told that things don't look good. That is all I am expecting happen. I don't think I'll ever completely get over that feeling. I just hope that it will decrease with every "milestone" passed.
First ultrasound, seeing the HB, hearing the HB, growing a bump, feeling it moved (I can't even imagine that!) ... I'm hoping that I don't live the next 8 months in fear and that I can actually enjoy this!